Dinky (Stella) did not sleep last night. Usually this wouldn't be a problem for me because I'm a fan of staying up late, but once it starts to hit 5:00 am or anything after that....I need sleep. She kept waking up pretty much every two hours, just to wake up. She didn't want to eat, she didn't feel bad. She just wanted to sit in my lap & watch TV with me. We ended up snuggling in the recliner with a quilt, all the lights off & watched Fried Green Tomatoes. I will admit, although I was very tired at this point, I enjoyed it. Stella does not like to give love. She's not one to snuggle or be sweet or just relax, even.
At only 10 months, she is already pretty hyper active. I'm not a young first time mother who thinks her child is out of control simply because I'm not experienced with children. I'm very experienced, actually. I've worked in child care for the past five years. I'm well aware that it is just my child, which admittedly, she probably gets it from her dad. She only wants to play, she is constantly on the go. Getting her to sleep has become increasingly difficult because she has a hard time taking a second to slow down. She is always moving, always, always, always talking. Even in her sleep, she's never fully asleep. Dink also has a little naughty streak, which I suspect will only get worse with age. She's well aware of the meaning of no. But many times throughout the day, if I leave the room, I'll come back to find her doing something that she isn't supposed to. Only to see her stop as soon as she sees me, because she knows it's wrong. She's very smart. She's also very stubborn & she has the art of a tantrum down to a science. She has two emotions & two emotions only. She's either very, so extremely, obnoxiously happy OR she is down, as low as it gets, extremely dramatic, screaming & yelling. As you can see, she keeps me on my toes.
Last night was a very rare thing, getting all of this sweet love from her. I was rocking her with the quilt covering one side of her head, because she enjoyed that as a newborn, & I just started to think of the first few weeks of her beautiful life. Having all of those memories rush back was very heartwarming & made me anxious for our next child to be born. I will say though, I don't know how it's possible to love someone as much as I love Stella. People have been doing it since the beginning of time though, so I guess it's my turn to see for myself.
Dinky didn't 100% go down until almost 9:00 this morning. Oh my dear, it was horrible! Needless to say, this Ma'am went down with her. Side note-Stella doesn't call me mom, mommy, or mama. She calls me "Ma'am" for some reason! We both ended up sleeping until 3:30 this afternoon. I'm not really complaining, we both needed sleep or else no one would be able to handle us, but I just hate the fact that we wasted so much of our day. Not to mention I had some errands to run today that I didn't get to, hopefully tomorrow isn't too late.
Now us girls are going to finally get dressed & we're going to go to music class. Stella being the student & me being the teacher. We'll meet up with her dad, who has been sleeping since he works nights, & he will be the parent during music class. Sometimes we pretend that we don't even know each other, it can add a little excitement, hahahah. Afterwards, we'll probably go out to eat as a family, since that's what we do on Thursday nights & once dad is off to work & the little one is bathed & asleep, I'll probably stay up ridiculously late watching old episodes of House & I'm okay with that!
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