Stella & I have been staying at my parent's house for quite a few days now since our carpets are STILL WET. Ugh, don't even get me started, I am so completely furious about it. I keep saying, "Tomorrow we're going to go break our lease." Yet we keep putting it off. I've had enough of it, I'm losing my mind. I genuinely think I'm losing my mind. I cannot stand staying here. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents & so does Stella & they love us. We all have a great relationship & there hasn't been any fighting or arguing since we have been here. Stella & I have been staying in the room I grew up in & we do feel comfortable, plus my mother loves getting to bond with Dink every day. BUT, there is nothing like having your own home, especially once you have a child. Not to mention, two families under one roof never ever works out. I can tell I have started to feel a little more depressed about things since staying here, just because I long for a decent home & the routine & privacy that we did have even in our dump of a house. Before things get worse & the stress starts to effect my relationship with Justin, my parents & possibly my pregnancy, I AM GOING TOMORROW TO RESOLVE THIS ISSUE. If Justin wants to tag along, then so be it, if not then that's okay too. Either way I plan to be out of that house by the end of the month & finally, FINALLY have a place I enjoy. I think we are going to go through with the temporary-apartment-while-searching-for-a-home-to-purchase idea. I'm also going to put my foot down & GET MY INSURANCE TOMORROW. I don't know what's taking the "state" so long, two months to be exact, but it's crucial that I go to the doctor. I have yet to see my little baby, it makes me anxious & worried & tear up just thinking about. I don't know what has happened to me today but it's like someone lit a fire beneath me & here I go!
Speaking of fire, I have heart burn right now. I've never tried a banana pepper in my life, but I just ate a bowl full for dinner. Obviously, that's the pregnancy. Today my cravings have been amazing & I wish they would stay that way. I've just been eating salad & more salad & vegetables all day. It's just all so refreshing. I did treat myself though, I had a crunchy corner piece of a brownie because that's my favorite.
Baby Dinkus woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning, that's for sure. She has had a poor attitude all day. She has also had her very sweet moments too though. I think she gave me more kisses today than she has ever given me total, all on her own too. I think she was also fussy today because she had gas. She woke up tooting like a grown man & continued with it throughout the day, hahaha. I gave her some gas drops though, which for some reason she loves & could drink the entire bottle if she were allowed. I let her sit on my lap today & watch that stupid Nyan Cat video on youtube & she was cracking up. She was clapping & snorting, acting like it was the funniest thing she has EVER watched. I had to pause it though to do something & her little heart broke. She started sobbing, tears everywhere, she was devastated. She just couldn't understand why I would take such a glorious thing away from her. Bad mommy! She went to sleep pretty easy tonight, but I know she'll wake up. She's been waking up during the night since we've been staying here. She's never done that, not even when she was a newborn.
Mothers Day is this weekend & I think Justin might be taking me on an adult shopping trip. Any time a special occasion comes up or reason that I should be receiving a gift I always choose toys ;) Always. That's probably too much for you guys, but I'm literally so excited because I already know of two items that I HAVE TO HAVE. I guess I'll end things there.
Dinky watching The Fresh Beat Band in a paper sack. She has two bruises on her forehead because she was dancing in front of the entertainment center & fell into it :(
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