Update!

WELL HELLLLLLLLO. 

I haven't updated in over a week because I've been sick & tired & honestly haven't felt like it. I feel better today though & I feel like writing. In my last post I wrote about how Justin & I were going to do the seven days of sex challenge, well, we didn't. Only because I ended up getting sick, which is such a shame! We succeeded Friday, Saturday & Sunday. I got sick on Monday morning & I've felt horrible all week. Luckily I got some antibiotics yesterday & I already feel loads better today! So maybe we can start that challenge again soon, we were doing good! Especially because we were having fun with it & bought some new bedroom treats.

Besides being sick & not having sex, I've been trying to get Stella's mood swings under control. I've never seen a child act like she does. Don't get me wrong, she isn't a devil child, it's actually somewhat cute, it's just that I can't allow her to think having a bad attitude is okay. I honestly think it's a trait from Justin's family, but I've been doing some research & it says that I should be really happy that she's acting like that. It shows that she's developing & becoming a real person. We shall see how long this phase lasts.

I colored my hair lavender this week & I love it. I think I'm the only one though, besides some girls on facebook, haha. My mother hates it & Justin doesn't seem too interested in it. He hasn't said that he doesn't like it, but he hasn't really complimented me on it. I'm fine with that though, it's not for them, it's for me & I ADORE IT. I also got some organic coconut oil to do a weekly treatment on my hair & it smells so good, I just want to rub it all over my body because it smells so good. I feel like I really want to go shopping for some clothes, but last time I went I tried on about fifteen things & bought only one just because I'm so picky. That kind of makes me not want to waste my time on it.

Tomorrow Justin is going to sit a home with Stella while I take a trip to Denton. I'm going to go color my friends hair for her & then we're going to go eat & catch up. I have to make sure to not get caught up in the fun though because I need to head back home before dark because I'm blind at night & can't drive. I seriously mean that, it sucks. Before I head back home though I'm going to buy some groceries at Whole Foods. I'm craving seafood & they have a really fresh & really large seafood selection. Plus, I just need to pick up your typical groceries. Organic & healthy. I'm looking forward to cooking us some refreshing meals this week.

My insurance finally came through & it's the biggest relief. I've seriously been so stressed out & crying over this for months now. It has really taken it's toll on me, the stress of not being able to see your unborn child, to know if it's okay. To even know if YOU'RE okay, because you are already a mother & she needs you too. Not having any prenatal care for an entire trimester. IT IS EXTREMELY STRESSFUL. But to make things even worse, or piss me off even more, I've had insurance this whole time! Let me just tell you what happened:

I applied for pregnancy Medicaid when I first found out I was pregnant, that was at the beginning of March. Whenever I applied when I was pregnant with Stella, I got approved that day & left with it that day. This time, I turned in my application & the woman said it would take 30 days for me to get approved. Um, why? Anyway, however many weeks later I get a document in the mail saying I was denied the insurance because I was already being covered by Medicaid. Well, at this time I absolutely was not so I went to the H&HS office & told them. The woman looked things up & said the issue was that someone who worked there submitted my application twice & all she had to do was delete one & RESUBMIT MY FIRST APPLICATION & WAIT THIRTY DAYS. I'm sorry, but no, I shouldn't be punished because someone else can't do their job. I left though, hoping they would get things worked out. A couple weeks later I went back to ask about the status of my insurance. The woman helping me said I wasn't even in the system, she said there was nothing saying that I ever applied for Medicaid. Well, at this point I got so frustrated that I literally started crying & saying, "I just want to see my baby." Well, luckily there was a lady there who recognized me & she confirmed that I had indeed applied recently. After an hour of computer work, they got the state to send them my application. They said they would call me. Of course they never called, so yesterday, yet again, I checked on my insurance & they told me I needed to turn in some documents. Documents that had already been turned in! I couldn't believe it, really. They have been screwing up & dragging me around for months. I decided to just leave & not even deal with them anymore. I ended up coming home & calling that Texas Help 211 number. Well, guess what?! The woman on there was so kind & helped me so much, she told me that not only had I been approved for Medicaid, but that I've had it this entire time. She said my card should be here any day. She then told me that Stella has Medicaid & dental insurance (they said she didn't). The woman gave me our ID numbers for everything, she gave us our expiration dates for our insurance. EVERYTHING. So yes, I'm very grateful for Dink & myself to have insurance now & I'm very grateful for that woman. I absolutely will not count on the horrible women at the H&HS office anymore. I will just be making a simple phone call in the comfort of my own home.

Anyway, our appointment is Thursday!!!